26 February 2012 by kathleen.

Today while searching my desk drawer for something completely unrelated, I came across a digital watch from the early ’90’s.  Wow.  I have come so far from the person I was when I wore that watch!

The watch itself was not an agent of change, just a memento of where I was at one time.  It was a man’s watch, of course, a digital Timex, and it was large, thick, and heavy. It had 4 buttons and countless functions, most of which I never mastered and rarely used.

There are geeky women who might wear such a watch, but they would be rare indeed.  Once, I wore it proudly.  Today, I’d go without a watch before I weigh down my arm with it.

There’s nothing wrong with a large, multi-function electronic watch, but for me: my tastes have changed.   Today I wear a simple, analog quartz watch, and its two functions — time-keeping and ornament — are of equal importance.

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18 February 2012 by kathleen.

I have not yet abandoned this blog.  For the past few weeks, however, some health issues have sapped my strength.

Before, during, and immediately after our transition or surgery, our transsexual events take center stage.  Now that my surgery is 3 years behind me, plain old ordinary living takes over: stuffy head, runny nose, etc.  There is nothing dramatic, just the mundane discomforts of civilized living.

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5 February 2012 by kathleen.

We transgendered live our lives rich with emotion.  We may be many things, but we are rarely bored.  While we are in the closet, our lives are filled with fear of discovery; filled, too often, with shame as well.

We we come out, when we cast caution to the wind and live our essence in the face of possible humiliation and even violence, we experience a life fuller and livelier than our cis-gendered fellow citizens ever dream of.

I know that when you need to come out, but can’t, life can be miserable.  That’s putting it mildly, right?  You can change your life.  The more certain you are that life in your chosen gender is impossible for you, the more certain it is that your own attitudes and beliefs can enable you to find a way out.

I can’t say what it will take for you to find your way out.  Just please keep yourself open to trying new things, and thinking new things.  You are worth the effort; you deserve to express your essence and live in the gender you know yourself to be.

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